my mother found a box of old recordings that i did on tape.
some were awful, embarrasing logs of myself
singing or creating tv commercials.
i was 10 years old and sighing.
something about kodak video camera ads and the nicotine patch.
and then audio of me in a church basement
singing along with my first band
in high school to the pixies, no doubt, and mars volta.
i lost my voice for 4 days after screaming "televators".