Monday, October 25, 2010


starting to stare out into the memories
while walking on S st.
and the female cycle never helps with depression
only enhances those lulls
only makes them more enhanced//

when Kyle
was fumbling in your living room
you held him highly
you were infatuated with the idea
of love
he stood in your living room
with a full loaded chest
his brain his ammunition
his mouth
your rouge
he stared out of the empty windows and contemplated
thories on life and science
zooming past your head
because at the time you thought he was just so brilliant
(and he was)
or that you were just simply stupid
(and you were)
but most of his talk was nonsense
due to drugs
but you still held him highly
wanting a piece of him
and you both walked down the town with a few others
who formed a group
rallying under the stars
thumbing down thoughts
always fumbling//

there is always a loud feedback
when i hear a familiar name
sometimes i want it all to be the same
like how it was
like how it was
like how it was

i'm 25 but i feel like i've died a few times
because these memories
are more like
but i've lived them
i believe.


give me good news
because it feels absent.
something not so logical would be fantastic.

cheerful, in the air -the hands are raining down bribes
and i'm feeling tired
and so maybe the lull is fine.
we are all wanting to hide in our beds
with the blankets over our heads
anxious to feel comfortable.

i want to feel comfortable with not being productive.

(memory lapse and broken aspects)

Tuesday, October 19, 2010


i wish i wish

i wish

EYEDEA was still alive
that I went to school (sometimes)

that Warpain't new album would drop already

that J.Buckley was here-right here-sitting down

everytime I go play at a college on tour
i start to yearn
for that feeling
of being somewhere
with a purpose
face in a book
that whole gig
learning about new bands
new books
new shit

staring out of
dirty windows.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010


Come out if ya wanna


10.8.10-Sunset Tavern -Seattle, WA 21+ 8pm

10.9.10-Mississippi Studios-Portland, OR 21+ 8pm

10.11.10-The Crepe Place-Santa Cruz, CA ALL AGES 8pm

10.12.10-Bottom Of The HIll-San Francisco, CA ALL AGES 8pm

10.13.10-The Bootleg Theater-LA, CA ALL AGES 8pm

10.14.10-Pitzer College-Pomona, CA ALL AGES 8pm

10.15.10-Riverside Community College-Riverside, CA ALL AGES 6pm

10.16.10-Sophia's Thai Kitchen-Stripped down set-Davis, CA 21+ 8pm

thanks ya'lll...

let's see where tha road takes us


To tha people in PORTLAND, OR

come out to our show


at Mississippi Studios w/ BATHS + EL TEN ELEVEN!

love you

Monday, October 4, 2010


remember when you and I would take the drive
down the highway from Long Beach to downtown LA
and pay 10 dollars to see the most magical shit
that we would have easily paid 100 for
but instead we sat down and ate pasta
and you drank Guiness
and I water or lemonade (because I was a baby back then)
and we would watch Jon Brion leap to the stage
with such precision
it would make our hearts ache
and he would pound out music for 2-3 hours straight
strumming and singing and clapping and
what the hell did we just see?
we would think

we would think
and stare out in awe
this is the most talented man in America
and here he is sitting down with us
in this tiny room
playing to all of these fools
who worship him too
and we all felt so honored to just be in the same building as him

and then i was floored
that night
THE night
when there was little ol' Fiona
just sitting in the corner of the room
it was so dark
but I swear to this day
her eyes glowed in the dark
and I stood silently screaming
fumbling over my thoughts
that innocence
i wanted to tell her how much she affected my life
how much she did
how much she will always do
but when we finally stood face to face
all i could do was
somehow she understood
and she

well i don't have to go into all of the details
but she understood
and that night
has got to still be
one of the most memorable nights of my life.


1. Jeff Buckley
2. Fiona Apple
3. Bjork
4. Beth Gibbons of Portishead
5. Jonsi of Sigur Ros
6. Billie Holiday
7. Ella Fitzgerald
8. Lauryn Hill (before she went crazy)
9. Elliott Smith

mid 90's post child