michelle.

these are the things that i don't tell many

(if any)

andiwontandiwontandiwont

because fuck,

it's fucked 

up. 

but-

darling, why do you allow such things

to come into your life?

(and you say "oh but she never knew any better")

oh, all the repercussions of a life not lived

or role models for parents

i'm so tired of this.

i wish i could hold your hand and guide you through this simple life that i live

and make you see that there are good people

here

that men are not monsters

all the time

that women are not out to get you

or hurt you

or steal from you

that sometimes, there are genuine moments

that sometimes, it is ok to laugh and mean it

that sometimes, it is good to smile and feel it

oh, mama

i'm so sorry for everything you've never felt.